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Swans

Like shit. Just journalled like 4 pages, and wrote a pretty depressing poem because my life feels like its falling apart,
I abuse my family, and my girlfriend emotionally and play the victim card, but am addicted to feeling like garbage.

Shes the most amazing girl ive ever been with, I feel like shes ignoring me, for whatever reason. I dont even understand why she is attracted to me.

>>55345257
>I abuse my family, and my girlfriend emotionally and play the victim card, but am addicted to feeling like garbage.

I know this man, it sucks

listening to ITAOTU

stressed because of classes and life things
also sad because my bf didn't want to sleep over tonight and he usually does and I don't know if I did something wrong or what

>>55345218
American Football. good times

>>55345303
damn....
>>55345290
I'm sure everything will work out in the end, I hope it all works out for you. your bf will come around

>>55345218
>that picture

>>55345435
I just wanted to draw attention to the thread tbh. haha

>Less Than Jake - Anthem

F-for nostalgic reasons, I swear!

And I'm feeling shit, I met a girl last weekend and got her phone number and we've been talking for a while now and since yesterday she just kind of half asses her responses or doesn't respond at all.

>Tfw normie feels

R.E.M and violent femmes
Feeling alright kinda tired cause I just woke up. Oh and I got the chance to play guitar for a qt yesterday so im feeling pretty good

>>55345454
you better do something about that girl man,ask her out bruh.
>>55345475
damn niccccccccccccccce bro good on you!!

>>55345488
I asked her out and she said sunday and that she wants to go shopping, I'm also seeing her the next day.
I just can't keep her entertained for that long just chatting on Facebook I'm afraid.
I'm not used to dating and all that stuff, I prefer going to clubs and taking some sluts home, I never asked for this.
Love is scary bro's, it makes me vulnerable.

>>55345475
Good job Anon, stain her mountaintops.

>>55345257
have you talked to her about it? I feel like you're almost there. you can recover, but it has to start now.
Please anon.
do it for her.

>what are you listening to right now?
James Ferraro - Night Dolls With Hairspray
>how are you feeling/ how have you been feeling?
Really mixed. I'm in the first relationship I've been in in a really long time, and it only made me realize how insanely insecure I am. She's literally the only decent thing to happen in my life in a good 3+ years, and I don't want to lose her because I can't hear her talk about her ex's without getting depressed and other stupid shit like that.

Enemies.

Not great. Slowly losing interest in gf, she doesn't care for me the way I care for her, just now she blew me off to have lunch with friends. I love her all the same, and always put her first.

>>55345367
Yeah, he actually texted me after I posted that
still don't know why he doesn't want to sleep with me tonight, but he didn't sound mad and I think it'll be okay

thanks anon

The Essential Simon and Garfunkel

>>55345574
I am feeling the exact same way as you man. I feel like everything in the relationship is some sort of game.

>>55345574
Anon, >>55345454 here and I can't say how much I feel you my man.
This is why I usually just make sure I'm the one to cut it off with women, rather to hurt than to be hurt.
Now I'm this emotional wreck with so much doubts and insecurities, I would almost feel glad if she just dropped me.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4uYVwToGzI4

BlacRoc. It's rap over black Keys riffs. Groovy stuff

Im feeling fly, but my girl is in Turkey so it's weird atm
Anyone else like BlacRoc?

>>55345534
ahhh fuck facebook man. maybe give her a call?
haha I dunno

>>55345653
I'll throw her a message later I suppose, fuck Facebook indeed.

>>55345218
Sufjan - age of adz

Just bought tickets to see him in September.

Feeling tired, got a 1 1/2 yr old daughter who likes early mornings.But excited because im going to a festival tomorrow in London.

Boards of canada

>I havent been able to sleep the past 3 nights
>I had the worst stomach flu ive ever had a few days ago
>Im in love with a girl that lives 3 hours away and she probably doesnt feel the same way about me
>Im failing half of my courses
>Im in the wrong major
>Im jobless and broke
>I moved away from my hometown thinking thats what I wanted, instead I just miss the living fuck out of all my friends and family

On the bright side, semesters over in 2 weeks, im moving back home, im ready to start fresh and see my friends and family again

Mick Ronson Slaughter on 10th st. Feeling really depressed. :<

tricot - T H E

Went to some suicide prevention organisation today, talked with them about my problems, they said, they dont really know how to help me and now I feel worse than before...

>>55345930
Sorry to hear that, anon. Are there other groups or people you can speak with? Just because they say that doesn't necessarily make it true for all.

>>55345973
There is some other organization like that in my city, I thought about getting advice there too. Dont have anyone else, I live alone because my parents kicked me out. Its probably simply weird for them to see an 18yo person who gave up in life.

listening to moodymann - amerika
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CQPtya9D1GU

i'm kind of ambivalent, been ups and downs lately
dropped a non-essential class and submitted an essay yesterday, so no outstanding work for the next two weeks. i'm glad i dropped the class because it was just a hassle and i wasn't enjoying it all, would rather do something else for the credit, but i also feel kind of bad for taking the easy way out
had to spend $30 buying a book for an essay i'm writing though, was gonna buy a sun ra record with the money. i feel like i'm terrible at managing money in general - i went out for lunch and had a couple of beers today, and now will probably be living on a tiny amount and eating at home for the next few days, but i've had no luck finding a job so far
met a girl on friday at a night out and she seemed really cool on the night but i think i waited to long to text back after one of her texts and now she hasn't replied in three days
missed seeing a friend i hadn't seen for a while because he just got back from queensland and neither of us could make it to the show
boris tickets are gonna sell out before i can afford to buy them

the overall feeling is that i'm expending minimal effort yet things are sorta going ok

>>55346033

Why don't you go and see some bands. What do you have to lose? :3

been listening to a track i tried to make sound zimmerish after watching dark knight.

https://clyp.it/0uho4tl4

Pic related.
Kind of pissed my headphones are fucking up.
A wee bit nervous about a meeting I have today.
Other than that fine.

Listening to Jesus of Suburbia for some reason. I miss being a teen and not working. :'(

wired on caffeine from staying up all night. on-edge emotionally as a result. about to fucking break-alyze every computer thing i own because it feels like everything is messing up at once. it also reminded me how no one, not even "repair" people, really knows how to fix a computer. it's just generic advice & "welp, time for a new computer." luddite rage ensues.

i'm about to turn on some tycho or grouper or something and lay down tho.

My mums doctor prescribed me prozac (different name but essentially prozac). I get very anxious and have a cynical outlook on life.
Have been feeling very anxious as only just started on them recently. Hoping to feel better.

Listening to a lot of Clams Casino recently along with Have a Nice Life and Radiohead
Listening to this second Clams Mixtape right now. I hope to accomplish something musically as a performer. Hoping to be happier/ Afraid of driving.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZKaOw-JNHNw

Combatwoundedveteran

Apathetic although I should really be desperately looking for work. I kinda just want to give up and live the NEET life though. Shitty bedsit, ramen all day err day, vidya 24/7

>>55345435
The internet shits out some weird ass fan art

>>55346115
Yeah, thought about it, I have around 20€ for anything, there are many punk bands and emo bands in my region, also screaming females, but I never really listened to them. Maybe I should give it a try

>>55346661
Give up!