/mu/ - Music (Temp full images)

>>51772792
>>sexually-abused-as-a-child girlfriend of 3 years tells me that i'm starting to use her like a toy

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qe3OOn3YXxk

>>51772792
>>sexually-abused-as-a-child
>girlfriend
no

>>51772936
why not? she's saintly, dude.

I got in way over my head this semester and have essentially given up.

I feel immensely shitty about myself

>>51772792
>tfw the more time I spend with my gf the more I just miss my ex

Playing my first live solo concert next Sunday and I have little-to-no idea what to do. Due to the electronic nature of my music the only thing I can think to do is play my drumset along with my music. Plus I was asked to play here by the guy who runs it so that just adds to the pressure

>>51773130
Do what most electronic producers do--pretend to tap buttons and make music come out

i want to be a girl so badly but due to where i live i cant do hrt or even crossdress at all.

i cry myself to sleep every night

>>51773151
I really don't want to do that though, it annoys the fuck out of me. Plus I've always wanted to play drums solo live

>>51773155
>leave /lgbt/ for /mu/
>see this
well I guess I can never leave

>>51773172
Well, do it then.

loser tendencies are starting to reoccur. not sure if they left or they were there all along and I buried them. uni finished for the year and I don't think they'll ask me to come back. my gf will leave me because of my loser tendencies.

h-h-h-old me /mu/

>>51773184
/lgbt/ becomes a part of you, no matter where you go it will follow you.

>>51773212
Well I still have a few threads open of it. I thought I switched tabs top lel

>suck at uni
>too scared of driving
>dont really see any friends anymore
>dont even know if I have friends, just acquaintances
>So cynical and scared of the world

>>51773130

dUUUUUUUUUDe this feel.
I'm a artist who is confident with my potential and ideas but I HAVE NO CLUE WHAT TO DO WHEN I'M GOING TO PERFORM THIS YEAR
same boat as you

depressed as fuck, like in a large-scale existential kind of way

>>51772792
>I don't even feel like fapping because of how much I want to date this girl...

inb4 anybody recommends any songs that have direct or implied references to love. I want this dealt with in abstract musical themes, not direct lyrical references.

>>51773266
not only that but i don't what the fuck i'm going to do on stage. What am I even going to wear? so many unanswered questions
hold me, bro ;_;

>>51773266
>>51773130
ITT: DJs

>>51772792
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jItz-uNjoZA

>>51773319
Just do that thing electronic musicians do where they lean back and are turning a random knob, making it look like it really hard to do.

>>51773282
https://www.google.com/url?sa=t&rct=j&q=&esrc=s&source=web&cd=1&cad=rja&uact=8&ved=0CB8Q3ywwAA&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.youtube.com%2Fwatch%3Fv%3Dhaintp62aO0&ei=V8V6VIC-GcGlNvnqgbgN&usg=AFQjCNFiJyBPMmFSQoBoE9W24vKRiOR1OA&sig2=be3tjHfQuG4_bAMsft59AQ&bvm=bv.80642063,d.eXY

Really like a girl, we've shared music recs and are starting to get along really well. She digs my jazz recs and gives me some obscure indie stuff.

Problem is I'm moving halfway across the country in two months. Cheers on this Saturday night brothers.

>>51773362
I don't even own a knob. Actually, it might be kind of funny if I brought this tiny cheap wooden voice recorder that is just a button and a knob and pretended to play that for a song or two

>>51773130
>>51773266
>>51773319
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cfOa1a8hYP8

But seriously, you guys have the opportunity to perform and the organization to make your own songs. Good job already, now go and do a good job!

>>51772792
>dating an underage girl

my gf cheated on me with my best friend, and I wished they both die

>>51773514
he's not really your best friend then, is he

>>51773514
i don't know you but everything is going to be okay, i promise.

>>51773410
>>51773514
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yF-GvT8Clnk

>>51773514
I too suffered from this fate once friend. It's best to burn the bridges and never look back. Don't let them creep into your life again because of the good times you once had.

>tfw don't really feel anything and if i were dying i'd be completely indifferent

The world is meaningless, yadda yadda yadda, I have no idea what to do, im a deer in the headlights of life, etc, etc

>>51773282
When I was existentially depressed the only songs I recall getting any sort of satisfaction out of were You Don't Know Me and Mad World (the Donnie Darko version). Not sure what about them in particular rang with me given that I spent a lot of time listening to music then anyway, but I appreciated having some sort of feeling to hold onto, even if it was melancholy.

That said, good luck anon. I've had a couple lapses since my initial major months-long emotional crisis over it but I think they've been dulling. Hopefully it's the same for you.

>>51773514

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FNCG1TtrzFY

And hey, just in time for the holidays! Just reverse the genders. Or don't because as we all know sexes are an illusion or some gay shit.

But seriously, I'm sorry to hear that, bro. Been there. Fuck 'em both.

>>51772792
jesus, dude. that's sensitive shit. be a half decent human being and give her whatever she wants, be it space, comfort, whatever.
no music for that sorry. not something you hear too much of.

>distance
>fucking distance
>19,000km of distance put between you and someone you're in love with
or
>the endless cycle of isolation from mental illness
>feeling so shit about yourself you can barely muster the confidence to talk to anonymous sex criminals on a venetian Twister™ enthusiast live chat

>>51773566
that's what i did, and I told my friend if I ever saw him again, that I'd break his fucking neck.

>>51773602
>You Dont Know Me
So many fucking songs show up on google
please be specific

>>51773639
Ah, sorry, the one with Ben Folds and Regina Spektor. The music video's by Tim and Eric if they aren't to your taste.

Also, I'm pretty sure this is a relevant response to literally every post in this thread:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x6vZMR-hv3U

>>51773664

wait wat

ben folds and regina spektor made a song together. and then tim and fucking eric made the video for it?

why didn't the stars direct me to this miraculous occurence

>>51773628
It sucks in the short-run but you made the right call chief. Well played.

>>51773687
It's from ages ago, I was depressed in like 2007. Still a great song.

>>51773070
same feel, man
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QjByx-eMVe8

wish i had enough energy to help you all tonight. just know that you're loved beyond belief even if you don't think you are. hang in there guys, i promise everything will be okay.

>no motivation to do anything and conscious of the harm it brings but unwilling to change

>>51773282
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QR2tdKajlvY

>>51773625
>anonymous sex criminals on a venetian Twister™ enthusiast live chat

i kekd

>>51773736
depression is a bitch dude... what do you do most days?

>>51773155
You should get psychiatric help.

>>51773760
work and read, sometimes listen to music

>>51773736
i'm the same. I fucking hate being so unable to change it.
exercising is the only thing that makes me feel like i'm going somewhere with something. t-thanks /fit/
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VKEbY9qYWHA

>no girlfriend

>>51773914

>that feel when you've had this feel for so long that you don't feel it no more
>that feel when sometimes there r times when you'll feel this feel and it feels

>tfw unrequited love

>>51772792
For OP
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b2Z0UI_oM1w

>tfw you've been addicted to smoking for years and have been equally depressed but suddenly stop smoking as if nothing had happened and just fuck still no gf

i need some "one of my best friends randomly stopped talking to me a few years back and i'm lonely"-core

>tfw camwhored for guys on /soc/ for the first time

I'm so lazy that my entire life and education is falling apart in front of my eyes because of my horrible procrastination and I feel totaly apathetic but at the same time completely terrified.

>>51774158
Gangsta Boo - Enquiring Minds II: The Soap Opera

>>51774158
Linkin Park - What I've Done

>tfw 25 year old kissless virgin with aspergers

>in love with a girl 400 miles away

>>51774229
Foghat - Slow Ride

>>51774236
fuck you

>>51774265
woah, dude. take it easy.

>>51774265
No offense meant, just drunk and thinking of puns

That really does suck though, man. Any more story?

>tfw never getting to see my best friend because of different unis
>tfw I'm afraid I might lose touch with him

>my brother abused me as a kid, sexually/physically
>too many feels

>>51774315
do you still talk to him? I don't know how I'd handle it if my brother did that to me. sorry to hear it.

>>51774295
>>51774278
Sorry, I just really don't like that song and I'm feeling shitty. She's easy to talk to and has great taste in music and movies. She has this goofy charm and we text all the time but there's this giant barrier of distance in the way. I compare every local girl to her and they never stack up adn it's makingme lonely as fuck.

>>51774127
The first song breaks me right off the bat

Essential lonelycore

>dropped out of college 2 years ago
>have been NEET for a year and half
>have no thoughts, feelings, or dreams anymore
>still have hope i'll make it as a musician one day

>wanna masterbate
>nothing gives me a boner anymore because too jaded from countless years of porn

>>51774327
he currently is taking advice from me, even though he is older it seems i have come out as a better man, only 18. he's nice, but he's a dumbass and i'm afraid i might end up like him and I constantly belittle myself and kill ambitions with chicks. but in short, i have forgiven him and found God, but it still hurts man. immensely.

>tfw music is all I really want to do
>tfw too scared to record anything

>>51774333
You probably don't really need to be told this but that sucks. I mean I don't believe in soulmates or stuff like that, that there's one person for everyone, but it really can be terrible when the one you feel closest to is unavailable. The only shitty advice I could give you is try to move on if it's only causing you pain

>>51774341
Not the guy you recommended it to, but this album is fucking about to make me cry, anon. Thank you.

>>51774229
I'm experiencing the same feel bro
550 miles for me

>>51774374
Thanks. I don't believe in it either, but I do think that you can't really fool yourself into not wanting what you so clearly want. I've tried to move on, but it would be really terrible to just cut her out of my life completely, you know?

>>51774402
That's very true.

If I were you, I'd talk to her about it if you haven't already. Don't expect it to fix your situation, but it could potentially put your mind at ease

>>51772792
If she can't meet your drive, it isn't your fault. She's guilting you into changing your nature

>>51773188
hey man, nice dubs. here's a good lonely album.

>>51774174
>tfw if left to your own devices you're productive and happy
>but people always on you to do this or that make you apathetic and prone to procrastination

>>51774396
I love Julie Doiron so much

>>51774344
are you from canada?

fuck man, that's a tough one. I hope you work it out.

>dropped out of college in march
>moved back in with parents
>didnt tell anyone
>havent had any contact with old friends since I left school

>tfw I wonder if I even exist at all

>>51774715
its like im actively trying to make myself as small and insignificant as possible in anyone else's lives to the point that their memories of me will seem like more dream than reality

>>51774715
>>51774739
>that feel
>oh fuck

>>51774715
>>51774739
>>51774799
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=21HwdNkzYq0

>>51774715
>>51774739
jesus man this so much

>>51774352
just do it bro

recording for the first time is a big step. its not going to sound perfect, and it doesn't have to but trust me youre gonna feel a wave of relief when you do

>>51774504
h o l y s h i t
you are me, man...

I hope everyone stays strong, please look around and see that you are cared for. Just give yourself those little breaks - you'll know what they are. I have let fear run my life for too long.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AMEExDZEgoo

>stopped going to uni classes
>gf dumped me
>unemployed
>want to move out and start my fucking life but I have to live at home
>haven't felt anything close to happiness in months
>almost all of my friends are assholes and I don't want to go out anymore
>want to kill myself but don't want to commit to the whole "being dead" thing
give me music to be a huge pussy to

>>51772792
>believing grills lies
>not knowing that she is playing with you

>>51774347
I am only fucking 20 and it's already starting to hit me.
Fuck, bro...

>been spacing out a lot
>stopped really caring about much
>letting your friends slip away
>generally uninteresting to anyone
>generally uninterested in anyone
>generally uninterested in anything
>enjoy not caring to an extent
my choices will probably tear my anus eventually but it's cool i guess.

This album kind of sounds like this feel.

Somebody help me out here.
> girlfriend of 3 years cheats on me.
> find another girl but feel emotionally absent.

>>51775209
Cloudstreet - One Day

>>51774715
>>tfw I wonder if I even exist at all

iktf

>Frustration and anger.
>Feelings of worthlessness.

>>51775291
Black Flag - Nervous Breakdown

>>51774229
>>51774397
4,994 for me. Shit sucks. I'm up at 4:13am hoping that she'll find time to talk to me after she finishes lunch.

>>51776396
Also
>tfw I just want to settle down
>no one to settle down with
>sex with strangers to feel anything other than awful
>doesn't help

>>51774174
I'm with you here brother. I'm way way behind on College work but just spend all day procrastinating. I honestly don't give a shit if I fail but obviously terrified of disappointing my whole family. We will find a way bro, this will not be the end of us. Good Luck. :)

I'm about to drop some feels so bear with me:
>Recently got arrested for possession of marijuana due to an illegal search, or at least illegal according to what I've learned in my classes about criminal justice
>No fucks given, prosecutor still decides to throw me under the bus, but also gives me the drug diversion project
>Decide to swallow my pride and take it
>Have to tell parents
>Have to lie to parents
>It's going to be another 1000 dollars or so of strain on them
>Want to get a job and help
>Am a lazy fuck
>Procrastinate on everything, even college
>Which now is probably a moot point
>Feel worthless, gf has false hope in me
>Family has false hope in me
>Keep falling back into patterns of depression that I thought I'd dropped long ago
>Am reminded of my ex, the girl who broke me
>She was raped
>I left her
>Came back after she spun out of control
>Tried to save her
>Ended up crushed
>Am then reminded of the terrible things I used to do
>Am then reminded I only tried to use this shit major as my penance for all the terrible things I've done in my life, to try and make a difference
>I'll never make that difference
>I'll always be a piece of shit
>I'll never reach that potential everyone, even my teachers, said I definitely had
>I'll never live up to the multiple 5's on AP tests and near flawless grades
>I'll never find my passion
>I'll never live my life in happiness

>dropped out of uni due to various issues
>failure in lot of aspects
>want to fix life and self but not sure how and want to keep this from friends and family
>don't know what to do

noone posted best feeling yet?

cozy

>>51774174
Yeah I know what you mean, it feels like ripping yourself apart every time you force yoourself to occupy your head with uni work.

There aint no beauty in dull math equations, it feels so damn empty and cold, like getting a cold hand pressed against you chest.

>tfw always exhausted during the last few weeks, I had to do the work of various group assignments (+ my own regular uni stuff) because my group members are lazy fucks and my profs don't give a fuck about that
>tfw no gf nor good friends, always feeling isolated as fuck the whole time
>tfw get more tired and depressed during the last few weeks
>tfw just want to have one day without feeling tired or depressed and just enjoy a bit of life / happiness

>tfw you don't even want a gf anymore, a friend would be AMAZING
>still too anxious to actually get one
>tfw too poor to afford a good DAW
>stuck with Garageband instead

>>51778834
dammit

>tfw have to take a university aptitude test on Monday and Tuesday
If I do good enough, I will have a breakfast with the president.

>tfw listening to one of your favorite albums and it doesn't make you feel as much anymore
This has been happening more and more often lately

>>51773130
What kind of music do you play? Do you have a bandcamp or soundcloud? How did it go?

>>51778834
I could try to be your friend. Do you have a last.fm? Mine's noff01

>tfw sitting drunkenly in a bar, looking out of the window over the nighttime city and you know that everything will be alright

>>51773130
Here's what I do.
I prepare pieces of my tunes and mix them together into tunes on the fly, it gets pretty stressful.

>tfw only girls that are into you are underage qts
>tfw only girl you like is your once best friend who told you she can never look at you the same way again after sharing your feelings for her

Numbing my senses with Noise Rock seems to the only thing that doesn't drive me insane. My tinitus is flaring up again so I've been listening to melodic prog mostly.

My brother killed himself this January after we spent Christmas together. He was a year older than me and we grew up together. Christmas is rolling around again and I'm fucking miserable.

>>51774174
doesnt age of adz deal with this? or futile devices at the very least

>Been away from home for five months now
> I'm going out and seeing the world I still feel just as lost as I did before
>I've made new friends and met new people but I still feel just as alone as I was back home

>rapidly switching back and forth between numb apathy and uncontrollable worrying about everything
>not really sure what's causing it

>>51779138
>tfw only girls that are into you are underage qts
I wish I was you

>so in love with a girl 300 miles away i would lay in bed naked everyday and talk to her
>i'm the most important person in her life but not that way

hold me /mu/ and please, help i don't know what to listen

>calm and quiet all the time
>sudden bouts of mania once or twice a day
What's some music for those manic moments where you know that everything is fucking fantastic and you are the greatest person in the world?

>lonely
>have some pretty good friends again after having a year where I almost talked to noone
>still feel like shit
>still have the feeling that I'm unwanted/undesirable
>sometimes have the feeling that I'm gonna cry for no reason whatsoever
>confused as fuck because of the feelings I have (or don't have) for some girl I know I shouldn't ever date for several reasons
>confused as fuck in general because I don't know what I want in my life
>feeling empty
>most of the time feel like I'm a fucking cliche and noone wants to hear about my problems
>rarely connect with people
>dislike most people without a reason

and to quote something from a movie that I saw a little while ago that hit pretty close to home:
>I'm tired. I thought I just needed a night's sleep but it's more than that.

> tfw 21st birthday sucked

>>51779242
>tfw nobody here cares

For the first time everything is just working out with school, family, social life, and relationships and I just feel relieved.

>>51779757
>relationships
shit's gonna end badly brah

>>51773130
like are u scared someone will call u out because its just a laptop, fuck that just do ur thing or like run a mixer between your laptop and the amplifier and just tweak on the treble and bass

You all sound like awful people.

>>51779839
I'm not a good person, yes.
What's some music for when feeling like you've done something incredibly wrong?

>tfw i'm gonna spend the summer stuck at home reading and listening to music because i dont have friends to hang out with

>>51779857
How would i know
Kek

>>51774174

most of us know that feel

ITT:
"I'm a little bitch, wah wah"

>lonely introvert
>starting university next year
>at home stewing in nervousness until then
>worried that I won't be able to handle the workload
>no friends because I was homeschooled my whole life
>only gf I've had completely fucked me over
>desperately just want to share experiences with someone I care about
>bounce between excitement for what's to come, and extreme anxiousness/depression
I'm just a trivial mess, really.

One of my closest friends killed himself, and I no longer have any motivation to do anything. I'm doing shitty at school. I stopped trying to hang out with people, because I'm scared that they will do the same, so I want to lose that connection because I don't want to get more hurt. I no longer do anything but sleep, eat, cry, and sleep.

I always lie, and cannot stop doing it. The worst part is I lie to myself the most, and believe it too.

>>51779034
D33_D33_D33

>>51780002

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UjUYr5RN6cM

>>51779956

This pic is a new level of feel

>even though things aren't good, I know everything will get fixed
In other words I'm pretty optimistic about my future.
Not a common feeling around here, it seems. I wish you all people get better, sooner or later.

>international student amongst many others
>need to end a casual relationship with a guy who is getting clingy
>getting with another guy from the same city in the same country

crying laughing in the shower
still miserably hungover

>>51780101
unwound

>shame
>fear
>guilt
>underachieving
>afraid of appearing stupid
>afraid of being too much of an outsider
>want someone to talk to, yet afraid to form close relationships
>people disappoint me
>I disappoint people
also,
>don't know any interesting girls
>"pretty" doesn't cut it anymore
>no prospects for gf
>not that I would get one if I did know someone cool, I just like fantasizing

> tfw you audibly fart around a cute girl

>>51780101
suicide

>>51779956
>>lonely introvert
>>only gf I've had
le shig

>>51779866
Anon, i'm sure you WILL make a friend before this summer, you just need a little confidence. Don't think about negative things. Sadly I don't have a music for that kind of situation.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XFresuWXiPM

>>51780317
She was a lonely introvert as well, so we kind of clicked.
It only lasted 6 months, though.
A lot of things were said, promises and such; but they were all lies.
So, I'm back to being the introverted hopeless romantic, now with more paranoia!

>>51780049
I'd this one fits pretty well
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9mGwIRfjU24
Plenty of feels on this album

>sexually abused when i was 5 years old

>>51780394
Shit, wrong link. I meant to reply >>51780032 here

>>51780253
> tfw nobody helps you with this traumatic feel

Truly love a grill for the first time. Know I'm too gross to ever even be a potential romantic possibility for her. Lose 40 pounds and start working out so she might even consider fucking looking at me. Now she's in the hospital for a few months for anorexia, and I hear she wants to fuck my best friend, who doesn't give a shit about anyone. I hate myself more than ever. I need something to listen to for this feel.

>used to be a good, sweet, self-sacrificing person
>slowly becoming a narcissistic
>beginning to feel like being nice is for betas
>seems like when I'm nice, people hurt me and use me and leave when they get what they want
>losing interest in others, and instead choosing to focus on pleasing myself first and pursuing my desires instead of helping other people
>starting to feel like everyone around me is stupid
>every little minor thing that people do annoys the fuck out of me
>beginning to feel like I'm the only intelligent person, surrounded by idiots
>mfw the worst part is knowing that I used to be a good person and I'm losing myself

>>51780887
feeling the exact same feels

i've been listening to black metal and post-hardcore/punk to cope, it helps.

this album in particular

>>51780887
>>51781133
oh and definitely ocean grunge

>finally achieved everything i thought i wanted (amazing gf, tight group of friends, decent grades at college)
>still think about killing myself constantly

i just feel so empty

>>51781133
I know I'm not perfect, but I'm beginning to feel like I'm perfect and like everyone around me is a fucking moron and I'm the only person who matters and everyone else is a worthless drone. I hate thinking that. It's disgusting. I don't want to become an asshole like that.

>>51781239
the worst part is thinking no they're not so bad and you go out and initiate a conversation and literally the first thing that comes out of their mouth makes you wanna smash your head through the wall.

doubting your own self worth becaus other people are too fucking stupid is a weird feeling, although i've begun to just experiment with it and see just how much of an asshole i can be to people before they dont wanna associate with me any longe.

the girls stay around surprisingly long