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Yea, how about you?

>>50069037
op an herod

by a thread

Can we start reporting these threads already please? Go to fucking /soc/ dickweed.

>back to work tomorrow
Guess I should be thankful I have a job?

no, my depression is worsening and I thought seriously about driving my car into a lake the other day but I'm too cowardly for that and I'm afraid of what people would think of me

and weirdly enough but I don't want to abandon you guys and let tapmusic/mutracker disappear forever

no the fappening has ruined my dick, it's fucking burning

>>50069819
>This thread has been pruned or deleted.

>>50070079
How old are you?

>>50070121
damn...

>>50070140
>404 Not Found

>>50070136
24

>>50070079
Not driving your car into a lake isn't cowardly. It's smart.

And killing yourself isn't taking the easy way out. It's a choice.

no
but as long as i have booze i no at least ill die of liver failure eventually

>>50070439
Is there anything in particular that makes you depressed? Or it's just how you are?

>>50070439
fuck nigga, don't do that. I got some albums I would not have gotten otherwise from mutracker 's request system.

>>50070079
I love you too much. pls no

>>50069021
shut the motherfuck up, course i am

Hoping to make some changes, getting into that autumn phase where I'm suddenly optimistic again. Hopefully rhis is the one.

If I castrate myself, either traditionally or chemically, will it make me stop having any type of sexual or romantic feelings? If not what will? Don't try to talk me out of it. I've already made up my mind that I'm doing something that will completely numb me to that side of life because I'm just so sick of it. I'm a virgin who has no hope of love in his future and I just want the bad feels to go away

>>50070559
you should castrate your brain maybe that will stop you from being retarded

>>50070605
Oh snap nice one anonymous

Probably the worst I've ever been really. Failing school. Poorest I have ever been. Just stay up all day and do homework, and it doesn't even pay off. Have a sleep disorder, have nightmares every night. Girlfriend has an eating disorder, admitted herself to the hospital and dropped out of school. I only find peace in nature. I wish I could be like Phil Elverum and just be happy in the forest. Seriously considered taking all of my sleeping pills last week. I have family though. They care about me and I care about them. I'll hang in there I guess.

sure. life is stressful but more or less ok

my only problem besides minor depression and anxiety is >tfw no gf, but whatever at least I've banged girls before

>>50070666
>Probably the worst I've ever been really.
>. GIrlfriend

>>50070507
It runs in my family, and my mom died recently. My grandfather is next, he's got liver cancer stage 4. I'm probably just depressed because of that, but I've had kind of a low-grade depression for a few years. I guess it's just ramping up lately because of stress.

feeling like I'm losing my friends slowly

>>50070751
I mean realistically, it could be worse. I have an okay job, a girlfriend, and my own place to live. I guarantee there are people worse off than me who aren't so whiny about it, but I just don't know how to handle it.

>>50070753
how old are you?
this happened to me my last year of highschool

>>50070753
>was losing all my friends
>was losing them to drinking and to driving

>>50070713
She's bipolar. She's battling anorexia. Its not like we bang all the time and go to movies. Its a pretty dependent relationship.

>>50069021
No.

>>50070812
YEAH YEAH YEAH

>>50070751
>>50070779
Having nice things doesn't make depression less legitimate.

Keep goin buddy.

>>50070779
I hope things get better for you. Most people would feel like shit when their family members are really sick and passing away.
I feel for you

>>50069021
no

i need more lonely music mu. ratboy genius isnt enough anymore

>>50069021
No friends
No gf
No future
No life
4 lyfe

I'm trying, but lately I've lost hope. I'm tired of things not working out. I'm unemployed and still living at home at 24 with out a car,job or life. I hate it, and it's nothing more than humiliating. I feel like I've lost hope and the thoughts of suicide are coming back. It doesn't help either that I'm so lonely. I live in a city where I've been outcasted, and no one seems to want me around. I spent a lot of time thinking about that, and if there was anything that I did or said. I can't find anything, and I hate that I'm living such an empty, unfulfilling life. I'm wasting my time and want to leave, it was my only goal after high school, to pick up my slack and get things moving..I tried, then 7 years later im still sitting in my parents house. I wish I had my own place, friends and life. I don't even have a gf, and the girls I like I dont seem to find around here in the boring ass suburbs. They have an awful taste in music too. The only one I've ever met that had a great taste in music and was a funny entertaining qtp2t turned out to be crazy.

>>50070914
Maybe you'd feel better if you had some potato knishes
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IFfLCuHSZ-U

Start my new job Today and pretty nervous about it all but feeling optimistic..

But on the downside me and my mum dont get along one bit and she lashed out really badly last night so i felt fucking low but i feel better now

why doesn't she love me, /mu/? we're perfect for each other ;_;

i wanna kill myself again

>>50071261
s-stop it, man...

>tfw she might marry him
>tfw we shared the best night of my life together, at a concert seeing a band we both really like
>tfw she linked arms with me and danced together the whole night even though she knows it will absolutely blow my minda nd make me fall even more in love with her
>why won't you just run away with me

No, dropped out of college because I could no longer stand that shit. Now I do absolutely nothing with my life, knowing that I have no perspective for the future. Haven't been feeling suicidal urges for a while, but they will eventually return.
Also, >tfw no gf.

>>50071248
Did you tell that bitch whats what

>tfw i'm only happy when i'm talking to him
>tfw too insecure too call him

>tfw gf that you love dearly
>always stressed about relationship
>always thinking about the future and how you'll probably break up eventually
>feel depressed

>>50071342
Well i did tell her its her fault when i have shit days since when i told her about the job she didnt even seem pleased..And every month she demands i give her 75% of my earned money and i fucking hate it

>>50070914
what the fuck this is actually decent
http://youtu.be/VzRKyaniuAo

>>50071367
Just fuckn do it go what's even the worst that could happen he'll probably be so glad you did because he was afraid too knowing the weak ass betasauce faggots you like

>>50071342
But i hope your doing well man.

well, this is the first sunday evening in months that I haven't cut myself :D

>21 years old
>never kissed a girl
might as well become a wizard for the rest of my life

>>50071163
how long will it last

>>50071434
>>50071524
My mom exploded at me for no reason the other day over text, said I didn't care about my family or anyone. We got in a fight etc, not as serious as your thing though.

Its ok /mu/ you can do this. Pop in your fave album have a nice cup of tea and a cookie or something and be strong i believe in you.

>>50071371
THERE ISN'T MUCH
THAT I FEEL I NEED

>>50071560
Congrats. Keep it up! Just know that I'm always on /mu/ here, laughing at your funny posts and snickering at your snide comments.

i love u

>>50071590
>27 years old
>never kissed a girl
come on step it up

>>50071560
Catscratches or actual cuts?

>>50071600
Thanks man. You know im always around so you can always contact me!. But im feeling better and optimistic.Cant wait to get paid and go see A few live bands in town next month

>>50071631
Whatever man just let it be an accomplishment.

>>50071631
Actual cuts. Each time, it would be five parallel lines, each about 2cm long and about 1mm deep on my right thigh.

>>50071671
Why? :(

>>50071281
i was going to but then who would take care of my dog

plan is on hold at the moment

Sometimes I feel very sad.

>>50071671
pfft babe come back when you nick a nerve

>>50071702
I guess I just wasn't made for these times...

>big howard stern fan for many years
>get news that eric the actor passed away today
>start hysterically crying
>I don't cry ever
>listen to new Aphex album
>last track
>cry even more

RIP Eric

>>50071671
Ive been down this path before and its a horrible circle to go through..

You cut because you need to get a release but it then becomes a downward spiral..

I have five thick scars on my upper left arm after i cut into my arm about three years ago

I Promise you things will get better <3

>>50071685
Why so orderly? Because OCD and it keeps the wounds concealed.
Why the cutting in the first place? Because I used it as a coping method for bad shit and didn't seek help. So it became a habit.
>>50071722
Will do. You want pics?

>>50071763
nah

i've got my own

>>50071763
yes, plz show

>>50071702
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hWA7Yp6sR3s

>>50071261
>tfw you wish you had this problem instead of being alone all the time stuck in your hometown

>>50071693
>>50071671
I've had depression for a very long time, but I've never understood the desire for physical harm. Whenever I thought about stuff like that I'd always think of how impractical and pointless it was. Like what would the goal or end game be? Why make myself to suffer more than I already was? And I don't want to die and leave a mess for someone to clean up. I'd much rather just stew alone in the dark and wallow until I was together enough to pretend to have my shit together to the outside world.

That's probably not helpful, or anything but it's how I feel.

All I want is a hug.

>tfw junior in high school
>tfw have massive crush on freshman girl
>tfw takes me a full year to work up the courage to talk to her
>tfw the first thing I ever say to her was asking if she would go to prom with me
>tfw she said yes
>tfw TYBG
>tfw have amazing time at prom
>tfw we hang out all the time following prom
>tfw have literally everything in common
>tfw few weeks pass
>tfw she says she's starting to have feelings for me
>tfw text her the next day asking about being bf/gf
>tfw she tells me to leave her alone
>tfw ask whats wrong
>tfw she says "just stop"
>tfw stop talking for two months
>tfw I message her on fb saying "hi"
>tfw she apologizes
>tfw we start hanging out again
>tfw still crazy feelings for her
>tfw ask about a relationship one more time
>tfw she says she only likes me as a friend
>tfw stop talking for a couple weeks
>tfw she's in a relationship now
>tfw I constantly see pictures of her and her bf on Instagram
>tfw I still love her ;___;

I'm >>50071261 btw

>>50071783
You got it.
>>50071753
Yeah, this is it exactly. I don't feel as shitty as I used to, but the release from cutting is still there. I trace over the scars just to keep the actual scarred surface area to a minimum.
>>50071804
It is impractical, but at least for a few moments, you replace the emotional pain with physical pain. It's a distraction, but also a way of getting out your frustration (albeit on yourself)

>>50071763
Just eat oreoes until you feel physically ill instead. That's my coping mechanism.

>>50071843
that fucking sucks man

>>50071839
me too anon

or a decent friend at least

>>50071804
same here

>>50071839
http://thenicestplaceontheinter.net/
ily

>tfw keep having dreams about my ex-gfs even though I'm pretty much over them

It just makes me feel lonely, not too sad.

>>50071859
Lol, I'll give it a go. Thanks for the tip. Do you recommend a glass of milk as well, or just dry?

>>50071848
Well if you have a bad day or just need someone to talk to you can get in contact with me if that may help

>>50071884
Stick oreo in milk hold oreo in milk until soggy

>>50070779
>a girlfriend

>>50071843
>Senior year
>Freshman girl on the bus really liked me
>She was kind of cute
>Didn't want to be in one of those creepy Senior-Freshman relationships
>Last day of school
>"Hey anon! I'll save you a seat on the bus"
>Decide to hang out with my Senior bros instead
>Last time I ever saw was when she told me she'll save that seat
>Not sure what she's done since cause there's no way I can reach her or contact her

and I'm >>50071839 btw

>>50071899
>>50071884
Almost as if you were drowning it if you like, I think that way sometimes, and it scratches the itch for any sort of physical violence I've ever had

>>50071804
i dont know. i dont think i want to harm my self, just sort of be dead somehow. i had everything ready to hang myself last night. then my dog came in and gave me a funny look. it was very strange and we went for a long walk. ive thrown the whole setup in the closet for now.

>>50070825
Oh you so have someone to share all your problems with and cure your loneliness boo-fucking-hoo

Yes I am lashing out because I am fucking miserable

>>50071891
At a time like this, I really appreciate the offer, but I've got some IRL friends that are total bros. They're partially why I'm not cutting this evening, unlike the past ones. Thanks anyways, Anon. You're a solid guy.

>>50071843
this board is 18+up bud, sorry

>>50071976
I'm 19 and a sophmore in college now

>dream last night
>meet this absolutely gorgeous girl, both of us are into each other
>laying on this big couch in a barnes & noble for some reason
>she cuddles up right next to me, looks up at me and smiles, and then lays her head into my chest
>wake up and remember I have no friends whatsoever
>tfw

>>50071959
>implying finding another person is going to cure your problems

>tfw no iPhone 6

>tfw 18 year old virgin
>tfw 3.5 gpa instead of 4.0
>tfw no volunteering hours to put on college application
when will it end
when will it end

>>50072028
>tfw guy i know buys iPhone 6
>tfw he tweets "fuck materialism"

>>50071959
Honestly the bi-polar gf is probably making it worse for him.

Get your own shit right before trying to find someone anon, c'mon it's basic sense

>>50072050
It isn't like I didn't try too. I went to the store on friday morning. I waited in their stupid line. They kicked us out because they weren't going to get through it. I did my part Apple why won't you let me give you my money

>>50072036
Losing virginity is really overrated, imo. I lost mine at 17, and it really isn't as fulfilling or as rewarding as you expect. Don't fret it, dude.

>>50072079
come to the Galaxy side :)

>>50072036
Im guessing your British if so then ask local Charity shops for volunteering roles.


I left college in 2013 with nothing and in over a year i did volunteering roles and landed a
decent job

I Know its worrying but its worth a shot good luck!

>tfw nothing specifically wrong with my life.
>in school, have an apartment with some of my best friends, a girlfriend for over a year
>feel empty at all times. never happy. wish i was dead.

sorry guys it doesn't get better

>>50072079
>giving money to Apple

>>50072136
http://www.phonearena.com/news/Samsung-details-plans-for-4K-phones-own-64-bit-processor-for-2014-15_id49101
who here hype for a phone that can give you a first degree burn after 15 minutes

>tfw liked a girl for 2 years
>tell my best friend i like her
>knowing this, he starts to talk to her
>they start going out
>they break up after 3 months
>she starts talking to me/ showing interest in me after they break up
> friend stops talking to me
>recently found out that i was used to make my former best friend jealous
>feels great

>>50072199
me. i actually have an iPhone now and it's shit compared to the Galaxy I had

>>50072261
What did you like better about the galaxy?

>>50072340
Better camera, Better battery life, NEVER SNUCK U2 INTO MY LIBRARY, never made wait 3 hours for an update just to get halfway and restart

>>50072340
not him and this is more about android than the phone itself, but everything i pretty much jailbroke my old iPhone for was something i was able to do with my galaxy with an app from the playstore
no rooting or nothing (although i sometimes debate on whether i should do that or not)

>>50072422
From what I understand, you shouldn't root Galaxies. Also is it shit that iOS 8 doesn't do? I'm actually mostly staying because I have a bit of content from the app store and because the continuity features are really appealing to me.

>>50072590
the only thing i could think of that isn't really available in iOS 8 is how much you can customize your home/lock screen but that's some ricer shit that nobody cares about
there was a lot more shit that was missing back when i had like iOS 3 or 4 but they stole a lot of shit from android and cydia so it should be a little more competent now

not really
i considered buying some cyanide the other day so i could finally end it but i couldn't find any

what albums do you listen to when you're depressed?

>>50072987

Nope. I'm done. I give up.

I can't deal with feeling this shitty and low all the time. No one knows how I feel and if they do, they don't care. I'm meant to suffer.

>>50072987

>>50073047
See you on the other side brother

>>>/r9k/

>>50070079
Mutracker hasn't been working the last few days, tho

>tfw quitting smoking and now I've just been eating a lot so I constantly feel like a fat ass

>>50071959
i've had a bipolar gf, who i happened to have been in a very shittyrelationship with. shit relationships are way <<<<<<<<<< than being independent but you wouldnt be able to appreciate this

>>50073553
Just chew bubble gum

>>50073633
Didn't think about that.

no im not. ill go into detail when I get home.

>tfw trying to quit drinking

>not creating a persona made out of lies
I'm not a virgin.

>tfw having an existential crisis my sophomore year of college as depression I thought I was over finally comes back

>>50072987
We're all gonna make it boys

>>50071163
add no education and wage slave and you're me

I can't sleep and I need to sleep. If I sleep I know I'll be thinking about my depression.

Ayy lmao look at all these depressed ass honkey ass losers

tonite ill be in da club fucking sum white bitches while you sit here and sob lmaooo

>>50069021
no
nonstop stress about school. I wish I didn't exist.

but I get Syro tomorrow. 3LP's.

ALso I'm spending all of my money on music I''m so fucking worthless

>>50073999
Too bad you failed English in school

I am, but I'm at the point where I can't remember the last time I looked forward to anything. Everything is just dread, I thought you were supposed to leave all that shit behind from your teen years.
Right now the only thing I take pleasure in is reading and listening to music, which is sad

>>50073999
>>>/out/

>>50073948
My freshman year I did nothing but lay on my bed and listen to Hospice by the Antlers for like a month. No friends, skipped a lot of class. Well, I guess I also listened to like almost every episode of This American Life.

>>50074009
Best way to spend Money is on Music so no worries there

>>50074038
thanks Anon.
it's great music at least

You ever think how many /mu/tants on here have probably killed themselves by now.

>>50069021
I finally had things go my way.
>Hook up with my oneitis
>I sing her part of a modern baseball song in the morning because the song is too similar to the night I had and hook up again

To hell with the spins, I'm staying
There's no good reason why I should leave your bed tomorrow
We can watch planet earth and brain storm tattoos
To hell with class I'm skipping
Let's order food and sleep in
and I've got so much to do
but it's okay cause whatever, forever

>>50074063
None because /mu/tants are fucking cowards

>>50074022
The last few things i had to look forward to where my best friend"s House party in august and getting to finally see this girl who i hadnt seen in over a year who now i miss like crazy and need to see more

>>50074053
No problem man.Over the last few months my record collection has doubled in size and it keeps me in high hopes when bad days occur but music is the best way to express feelings in my opinion

>>50073948
i know that feel.
I actually just dropped out and said fuck it. I feel a lot better like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders but I kinda feel like a loser for quitting school. Oh well at least I don't think about killing myself 24/7 like in college.

>>50074022
>I can't remember the last time I looked forward to anything
I've been at that stage for a few years now

besides school/work all I do is dick around, play vidya, and listen to music

>>50074022
>tfw literally the only thing you look forward to is working on your music backlog

>>50074073
congrates anon

>>50073999

>999

>>50074088
This.

I dropped out of college five months in and felt a million times better

>>50071843
just be happy that your parents still care for you anon. all the pre-18 problems you will experience aren't shit compared to the problems you'll face once you reach 18.

Just heard this song and have a new positive outlook on life

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=miMJr5HwJdo
we're all gonna make it in our own way guys, I AM gonna bang that waitress