>broke up with gf of 2 years 2 months ago
>been pretty bummed since then
>drinking a lot
>hobbies don't interest me anymore
>goals of being a musician are more of an obligation than a genuine pursuit now
>the few times I sit down to write I end up producing stuff miles ahead of what I used to make but I don't care
>it's such a hassle even making rough drafts of songs that I just tuck them away under my bed and forget about them
>for the first time in my life I was someone's number one, their favorite person in the whole world
>for the first time I felt like someone really understood me on every level
>now every day is getting over the fact that, no matter how hard I try to impart my thoughts and feelings, nobody will comprehend and embrace them like she did
>went out of town today and took the bus back
>fell asleep listening to The Battle of Hampton Roads
>"I'd be nothing without you, my darling, please don't ever leave," was the last thing I remember hearing
>have one of those comfy, half-way naps you can only have while sitting in the backseat of a car
>start to dream about us cuddling in my bed
>wake up about 40 minutes later, genuinely happy and feeling warm as if it actually happened
>get off the bus 5 minutes later and walk 3 miles in the -8 degree weather
>day progressively gets worse as the dream gets hazier
God damn it /mu/, usually I don't participate in feel threads but today was just too much