>listening to pic related
>desperately chugging down water & eating all bran because my shits are so hard they're bringing me to actual tears of pain even when i'm squatting over the toilet (help on this matter please)
>massive cravings for drugs other than the weed i currently have ironically all because my friend recently being placed in the hospital after losing his head from his drug use & will be moving onto rehab after there, wont't be likely to see him for quite long time & he's one of my only real friends i see
>my usual suicidal thoughts have started making more & more rational sense to me than previously like i can see people noticing how thin i'm getting how quiet etc & so it'll just be sadly expected when i do go
>found someone to make music with & feel on the point of realizing all the ideas i've been building over the years in regards to music