>don't have enough focus to even take care of myself anymore
>sleep schedule is fucked
>eat once a day
>failed first year of uni,
>no self-control anymore
>failing battle against ADHD, might have to entrust my livelihood to meds
>self-confidence falling apart as a result of the implications
I'm sure someone will come around and tell me it's because I don't want it enough, or that I'm lazy